This has been a very stretching two months. Being a single mom in preparation for ministry is not easy and definitely pushes you to step out on God’s promises and increase your faith. The Lord spoke to me and said ‘you are exactly where you need to be’. So I have anchored myself around that word and stepping out to believe God for bigger things. For the last few months I have been asking God what talents and gifts has He placed inside me? I didn’t realize that God was trying to equip me because I was so caught up in my circumstances. So, I made the decision that I was going to delight myself in the Lord in all I do. I was going to grab this thing by the horns and learn everything God wanted me to learn. As I did, I really found myself wanting to do those things I had not wanted t do before. The Lord pulled stuff out of me I did not know was even there and showed me how He is developing skills in me to use to glorify Him! It’s been amazing and perfect! When I least expected it, I received a promotion. I knew then that promotion truly comes from the Lord!
Since internship, I realize now that God is preparing me for something bigger then I can even imagine. To truly give 100% of my life to Jesus (including my time, and my deepest desires) as well as living my life as a living sacrifice on the altar is what it’s all about. I’ve been stretched in many areas but mostly in sacrificing my wants. This might sound so small but the Lord requires obedience, not sacrifice. To be totally yielded to the Holy Spirit requires being yielded to Him, even in your every day decisions. If I truly want to be used by God, and see nations shaken by the power of God – than I must know him!